Do not let your spirit wane
"One must have chaos in one, to give birth to a dancing star." – Friedriche Nietzsche On the weekend, during one of the most important times of my running career, I had another "episode". Again, the usual signs had been there; above normal irritability, loss of judgement, an increase in task loading ... eventually culminating in me breaking down Friday morning and being sent home from the race I was supposed to be coordinating as race director. Ultimately, the only person at risk was myself and I needed to be removed lest I hurt myself - prior to the breakdown I hadn't eaten a substantial meal in over 48 hours and probably not taken on board more than a litre of fluid for close to 7 hours. I clearly was not well. It's painful to talk about this, especially this close to the episode. One of the things that many with Bipolar, and mental illness in general, have to live with is shame - shame over our behaviours that occur when we're not in control;...